Finding Sandae

I hate the movie Finding Nemo. There I said it. It's annoying to me that the mom dies at the beginning of the movie. Why do Disney movies always have to have a parent die? Usually it's the mom which annoys me even more. Why not the dad? But the movie is a lovely one in which the dad tries to find the fish child that has gotten separated from him. It's a story of love and perseverance. It's a story of passion and gumption and spunk. It's a story of finding that which is lost.

Finding Sandae.  Anyone else have this happen to them? They become a parent, a spouse, an employee, a volunteer, the list goes on and on. They become what they need to become in that particular situation. Take a step back though and really think about it. Do you really know yourself? Do you really know what you like to do? Do you know what you enjoy? Do you really know who you are? What about when you are alone with only your thoughts? What about when you are forced to discover all of these things on your own? It can be overwhelmingly frightening but it can also be overwhelmingly amazing.

Finding Sandae.  My goal this year is to find things that I didn't know I even liked and try them.My goal this year is to get back to doing all of the things that I once loved. My goal is to continue to find myself and love myself more and more each day. 

I had someone ask me recently what did I like to do? I had to stop for a minute and really think about it. A lot of times people don't get asked that question. You do things because someone asked you to do them. You don't always put your needs first. You think about other people and take care of others and before you know it, maybe you've lost yourself. 

For me, it's going to be about going to the movies more, reading more books, learning more things. It's going to be about trying new things like a new recipe or class. It's going to be more Bible studies and more studies about women in history. It's going to be about reconnecting with loved ones. It's going to be about really immersing myself and finding what makes me truly happy.

Happiness comes from within. Happiness cannot solely be because of another person or a place or a thing. I used to think that new clothes or food made me happy. I remember those days. I was filling a void with things. Now you will find me happiest sweaty after a hot yoga class or curled up with a book in fresh clean sheets. You will find me happily taking a walk and listening to music outside while observing all of the beautiful world in which God has given to us. You will find me laughing with my friends over the latest things going on in our lives. You will find me praying to God and thanking Him for another day in which I get to live. 

Finding Sandae.  It's a story of love and life that is found. It's a story of courage and faith and trust. It's a story of perseverance and passion. Thank you to all of those in my life who are currently contributing to my happiness. You are making this journey through life incredibly wonderful being by my side. 

Thank you for reading and following along with me!

Sandae